Realizing You’re in a Stay at Home Mom Rut.
Yesterday I felt like a badass. I’m pretty sure sometime during spring break last week my house threw a party that I didn’t know about. It was out of control. I went on a mission to regain control again and I totally kicked my house’s butt…I scrubbed it, I swept it, I conquered it. It was crying in pain and in shame. I am the champion. I am awarding myself a trophy for doing all my laundry AND putting it away. That right there is huge.
Yesterday also was W’s first soccer practice and he did great. It’s awesome to see him into something that he loves to do. He didn’t stop talking afterwards till his head hit his pillow. He recapped the whole practice for me even though I was standing there the whole time watching. I am proud of him. I met another mom who volunteered to be the assistant coach because nobody else would and I agreed to help her. At least I am not “assistant coach” seeing that I know nothing right now of the sport. If it was me in charge I would look at the kids and tell them to just go out there and kick the ball, which I think would actually work at this stage of soccer. 😉 I am looking forward to the season!
Which leads me to a serious note. I have realized that I have let myself slip into a stay-at-home mom rut. Yesterday, like I said before, was Will’s first practice, I had something to look forward to. I got up, got the kids off to school, chilled for a moment and then got busy on this house. I was in a great mood and kicked butt. I felt really good when practice time rolled around and it made my day even more seeing how excited W was. I have always been the type of person that likes to have something to do, somewhere to go, being involved in something. I was in the MOMS Club for 4 years and president of our chapter for 2, I was highly active in our chapter attending at least one activity a week. I always had something on the calendar, something to work on, activities to plan, emails to send, activities to attend etc. It was great but after my second year of president I became burnt out and then both of my kids were in school full time and I faded out of the MOMS Club scene by choice. What I do miss about that time is the being involved in something and having something to do. That is what I am lacking at the moment. This year many of my friend’s kids are in school full time now and they have became busy or have went back to work. So now I find myself home a lot because if I let myself leave the house I end up spending money, I am really good at that. 😉 I haven’t been out with my camera so that is driving me crazy and adding to the feeling of being in a rut. I know that this will all take a turn come summer but for now it is eating at me and something needs to change.
Last night it really hit home. It all made sense after the day was done. I had something on the calendar, something to look forward to. I think it is easy to let yourself slip into a rut if you are not careful. My rut has been going on for longer than what I let myself believe. I wasn’t staying up with what I needed to do because it was the same thing every day. Get up, get the kids to school, laundry, clean, grocery store etc. That gets old real quick, I have become bored. I know what you are thinking, ‘well shut up and go get a job’. Yes I could do that but I don’t want to 1. quit when school lets out for the summer and 2. I don’t want to have to put them in child care everyday of their summer if I do keep it. I am very fortunate in the fact that I can stay home with the kids and be here every day when they get off the bus, to spend everyday of the summer with them, to be a huge part of their lives. I am extremely grateful everyday that I can stay home because I know this could change in an instant. My mom stayed at home with us until I was in High School and it was great and I love the fact that I can do it for my kids. That I don’t want to change until it is necessary.
So I have had my wake up call, I realize now that something needs to give..needs to change. Yesterday in my post I whined a bit about being a ‘soccer mom’ and wanting to avoid the whole assistant coach or team mom but would it really be that bad? I’m starting to think not. It is something to be involved in and most importantly it involves my son and something that he loves. Not that that is the only thing I want to be involved in but it is a start. I have always been one who would rather be busy than bored. Boredom eats at me and I am now missing half of my arm and leg. It’s time to get back into the swing of things, break the boredom, break the cycle.
I’m off to be un-bored.
Posted on March 29, 2011, in life, Me and tagged Blog, Child, children, events, family, Home, Housewife, Human, kids, life, me, miscellaneous, my life, Parenting, Random, Soccer mom, Spring break. Bookmark the permalink. 19 Comments.